and all over my body —- my muscles keep having spasms - even the bottom of my feet.

sooooooooooooooooooooooooo painful - OMG

I need better painkillers. These aren’t working.

I realize that no one cares…. but I literally hurt from the tips of the hair on my head to the tips of my toes.

Having problems moving. Any movement is mind-numbingly painful.

Soon after leaving my treatment again today - one of my ears was bleeding and the other was swollen and red/purple on the inner tube and the eye pain is nearly unbearable

plus all the other problems… and my feet hurt so bad I couldn’t really walk if I wanted to.

I get to do it all again tomorrow. If I can hang on that long - the way I feel now, I should be in the hospital.

Sadly…. (;≧皿≦)。゜°。 ALL of this crap is just the side effects of treatments. Shit. I dread tomorrow.

The truth is only violent if you ignore it.

(via kharper61)

and it destroys the lives of everyone involved when you try to ignore the truth - you can’t ignore reality and responsibility - you can’t

The power of love is evident by the fact that the most joyous and the most painful occasions in our lives; have been directly related to something or someone we loved.
william chapman (via williamchapmanwritings)
Find the things that matter, and hold on to them, and fight for them, and refuse to let them go.

― Lauren Oliver (via psych-quotes)

my son & I are precious and worth fighting for…. I wish ‘someone’ realized that

The courage it takes to change our lives is inside all of us. The fear of finding the courage, is the only thing that keeps us from changing.
william chapman (via arabarabarab)


A trio of stills from Godzilla vs. Megalon (1973).